I am bought to my knees.
The sadness, a shocking reminder
Of the Beauty.
Here in the realisation
Lies the seed
The tangible link
A playground for the Beloved.
The ability to feel
I love you.
I tried to speak to you today
Instead I hung my head in shame.
How presumptuous of me
To think that in your presence
I could say anything at all.
For how could words encompass
How could my lips give shape
To the silent beating
Of my heart.
I am a temple
And you speak me.
I can only lay down my words
Rest this tongue
It’s funny sitting here, thinking how I might try to explain ‘how’ to meditate. See, the true meditative state isn’t something you can ‘do’ – it’s what you already are! Always here, never further away than just right here. So blatantly obvious that when you realise it for yourself you may giggle uncontrallably at the fact that you ever could have missed it!
This is why I believe so faithfully in self-inquiry.
I guess I’ll explain what this is from the perspective of my own journey. I read once that the fastest route to enlightenment is the ‘I am’ meditation. For some reason, that particular pointer sunk deep into my psyche. I was suffering from pretty bad insomnia at the time so I had many peaceful, silent hours in which to contemplate this.
Rather than the traditional route of self-enquiry, though, which involves asking ‘what am I?’ I took a slightly different tack and said over and over in my mind, ‘I am’ whilst trying to see the reality of this. Lo and behold, after many hours, I realised – holy shit, I am! I had awoken, momentarily, to the perspective of pure being. The realisation and remembering that what I am is this awareness. I am the substrate in which thoughts appear, I am still nothingness, peaceful and vast. I am this that I am! What a simple yet profound realisation.
So… how to meditate? Find out, right now, what it is that you already are. Open yourself to the possibility that the truth is closer to you than your own nose!
Rest there and let it undo you.
The Is-ness, is so solid
a chunk of This-Is-What-It-Is.
and yet, in my plight, I argue, what if?
What if, I had done it differently?
What if, I had chosen this way?
What if, I am without doubt?
As if the fists of my refusal
can possibly dent
the edifice, the stoney truth
of What is Happening.
And yet, the Is-ness calls me back,
my sweet lover, my tender reminder
that hindsight is masochistic and
foresight a case of control-freaking.
In the laughing gentle face of reality.
my mistakes are beautiful reminders
that a flaw in perfection is the master
artist, reminding us all
of the truth that is so easy
Every dropped stitch,
Every missed calculation,
Every errant brush stoke
is genius, pure genius.
to the grander truth,
the Ultimate Yes: No mistake
is possible and every seeming
misdirection is truly pointing
There is nothing to apologize for.
All of your mistakes are beautiful
perfections, perfectly aligned
to show you One True Thing:
This is What it Is.
When you love that,
love the mistake, accept
embrace the Is-nes
There is nothing Wrong
and nothing Right.
Rumi said it already.
I will meet you there.
Lorri Ann – theawakeneddreamer.com
I was absolutely blessed to spend time with a man named Vishrant. Vishrant is a spiritual teacher who resides in the peaceful and beautiful hills of Roleystone, Perth. Before meeting Vishrant I think I thought I was a lot more conscious than I actually was! I had a whole host of deluded beliefs about where I was at and what I thought spiritualty was. I also came to him with a lot of defences intact and a load of pain and low self-worth underneath those defences.
I am a believer that on the spiritual journey one has to be fairly self sufficient, you can’t rely on another person to figure out the truth for you. That’s truly a journey for you and you alone and you’ve got to have the balls to really look at yourself honestly. I think you also need a true and genuine inner drive to know the truth – a sincere heart, as Adyashanti would say. In saying that, though, having a true teacher to guide you and show you where you are stuck and deluded is such a blessing. An uncomfortable blessing at times! How absolutely wonderful to sit in the presence of and hear wisdom from someone who has actually walked the path and found their way home. For that I will be forever grateful.
Vishrant taught me that resting in and as space is the easy part. He ever so gently showed me that as well as recognizing truth you also have to recognize delusion. I have come to see that if you want to be free then you have to see and undo the belief systems that keep you contracted and locked in perceived separation.
I could write so much more about this beautiful teacher and what he showed me but for now it is sufficient to say – it feels like the journey has truly begun! He lit a love for truth in my heart and helped me see the beauty within, there is so much more clarity here since sitting with him. Life is such an amazing journey!
Thank you Vishrant, thank you life.